I have a new focus in class. It's going to take a little bit to find this focus but I am going to stay at it and make it happen. We have all ready covered that I am not the serious type. I'm overly carefree at most times and I have finally come across something that this part of me doesn't help. Fighting. Carefree and lighthearted do not go with fighting. Well, not if you want to do it and be fierce about it anyway.
I got a little peptalk from my brother on Sunday and what he said makes sense. Basically he told me that I should stop worrying about everything I am worrying about and I should only have one focus. That focus should be hurting the person I am up against while embracing and maintaining violence. I have thought about it since the little talk and I truly believe people that are okay with violence and fighting have no (or little) moral obligation. That's what helps them win fights. That's what helps them be comfortable with violence. People with moral obligation hold back a wee bit because they don't truly want to see someone hurt. I am one of those people. My brother says he'll get a chest pad and a cup to wear around the house on Sundays so he can violently attack me and have me fight him off without truly hurting him but still be able to put my all into it! This is very exciting as it means I can truly embrace violence and finally have a feel for it. My brother says he'll only be happy once I am comfortable enough to dig my thumbs far enough into my attackers eyes to rub the back of their fucking skulls. I'm so ready for this...
There was more to this talk. Since I am a female and since attackers are usually strong and violent (stronger and more violent than the woman they are attacking anyway) he thinks another solid bet is a gun. I will be like all those "authority figures" out there helping the general public and keeping them safe!! I'm going to have to practice hanging out at coffee shops and taking naps while working but it's cool, I'm a fast learner.
As a going away gift we are taking gun classes together (that way I'll know how to load, clean, aim, all that good stuff you should know about your gun) and then he said he'll get me my own gun as a going away present. That's pretty much the nicest thing anyone has done for me to show me they care about my well being so just typing this out is making me go all soft and mushy inside. I'm really going to miss him but since he has always wanted to see LA, once I get there he is going to fly out and tool around with me for a bit. So neat.
The training is so so as of right now. I loathe working the bag. Loathe. I feel like I am doing things wrong over and over again. Bugs the shit out of me. I might just refuse to work the bag for a while. I'm also considering going in right after work when the place is empty so they have to work with me. :) Ha ha. Either way I find the bag boring and not much of a teacher. M helped by working with me (on the pads) last night for a while. When we finally went to spar the equipment was all super sweaty and it kind of grossed us out so we decided to simply work out a bit instead. I worked out my upper body and I am thrilled I did as I really feel like it needs some help. I am getting super good at jumping rope... who knew jumping rope was so fucking hard to master? I have watched Million Dollar Baby and I envy the jumping rope scenes. Although I don't see her stretching very much and that is something I need more of as well. I have been using this pilates machine called The Reformer (you can see it
here) and it's helping me stretch out and work out my legs big time. When you put your feet into the straps it feels a little like the OBGYN clinic and that's freaky. While working out on it I can feel my hips crunching and popping. It doesn't hurt but it's a strange feeling, so I want to find out why it is happening and if it's a terrible thing or not. Then I want to make it stop. Google is my friend.
The last AWESOME thing that has happened is that I have found someone to take care of the Bob's and Malcolm while I am away! What a relief!! My aunt P has agreed to take them in and care for them while I am gone. AWESOME! I am going to revamp the cage a bit so caring for them is even easier than now. That was a future plan anyway...
My newest love is oatmeal. Mmmm... I enjoy seeing what things I can personally do to improve this ongoing and gratifying relationship. Sometimes I add apples and honey other times I eat it plain. I enjoy it with milk. The amount of milk depends on my mood. You know what is so good on oatmeal? Okay, you know the "fruit on the bottom" yogurts? If you eat all the yogurt off the top you are left with the fruit mix. Just stir it into your oatmeal. YAY!!
2 comments:
The bag is good. The little one helps you hit moving targets and adjust on your toes and the big ones give you a sense of what it's like to go at a person. Put a perpetrator looking hat on it or something.
The gun thing is a little freaky, but in a hot survivalist "joy will be the last man standing" kind of way. Fuck anyone who tells you you can't bring all those dogs in the park now eh?
I think I am in love with the reformer. Not only do I love stretching and feel like it could show me the way, I can think of several other recreational uses for it, and I am intrigued.
Another thing to think about is organs, as in where are they and how to smash them. This is a must have cheap shot for the little girl on the go. I would personally recommend a double fisted kidney shot if you ever find yourself thrown over someone's shoulder and don't want to be there. If you hit them hard enough, people pee blood and it's satisfying.(see ma, I did learn something living with the rugby team!)
You might have to teach me how to jump rope like a pro. I refuse to watch Million Dollar Baby because my soul is tiny and shriveled and I like it that way so I tend to shy away from movies that would stretch it.
And lentils man, lentils! If you're training and looking to get all strong you need protein. We'll talk more about this later but lentils, k? I've been doing experiments with food over here and it's kind of cool to see how my body reacts to certain foods and certain activities. The body is totally a machine and adjusting what you put in has immeasurable impact on what you get out. If you want a fancy race car type, you need good, efficient fuel. That example sounds a bit redneck, but since you're from the dirty south (of Mass) it should resonate.
I might dress up the bag once I am better at everything. Good call. As of right now I need to be decent at what I am doing you know? I don't think I will have any problems with the bag once I know I am kicking correctly.
I'll show you how to jump rope. It's not all that pro like right now but I am getting better. I do great when I close my eyes. I can jump rope for about 3 - 5 minutes now without getting all caught up. Go me.
Lentils worry me. I'll try them though because I live on the edge like that. So lentils are like super good oil. Keep the car references coming. :)
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